from off the top top of my head....

what i wrote in my notebook on November 15,2008
@ 12:43 AM

I don't feel the crunch
in the delicious bite but I do know
Britney Spears shaking it
with what she got from her momma
and one day when it's time
that star will become a legend,
The one that will still shine
through Louisiana and outward
shining through California.

I love you's

soap operas are too drama-e and i graduated from Torrance High 08' and now...

I'm in Graduated Class of 08'
and this is just a tiny update...drum role please...i look around looking for Andy Hurley.

Quote from the movie Eve's Bayou...which is my favorite.

" The Summer my father said goodnight, I was ten years old, my brother Po was nine and my sister Cisely who had just turned fourteen.
We are the descendants of Eve and John Paul Batiste I was named for her, Like others before me i have the gift of sight. But the truth changes color depending on the light. Tomorrow can be clearer then yesterday, Memory is the selection of images some lucid others printed indelibley on the brain. Each image is like a thread, each thread woven together to make a tapestry of intricate texture and the tapestry tells a story and the story is our past."
-Kasi Lemmons(Eve's Bayou)

internally UNZIPPED

UNzipped has a style that is MAGNETiC
    ALL THE PIECES TO THE  
PUZZLE
Passion
Infinite
Vivid
Vigorous
Chastity
SATiSFYiNG
ELECTRiFYiNG
I,Shana Forster .I am 18 years
young, possess many talents and  Graphic Design is one of
them. Creative ideas  circluate  my brain  all day
and everyday.  I  found one of my creative outlet  5 years
ago, which was using the programs JASC Paint Shop Pro  and JASC
Animation 3 to create graphic designs and editing photos. Idiscovered  these
two programs when my Mom bought me my own  DELL Windows XP computer
and  I taught myself how to use the programs  by using them 
frequently. As I got a little bit older I realized graphic design my passion
and a talent. In my art I include images that my heart desires and has passion for such as ;
music, bright colors next to dark shades, letters, numbers, texture, anything intricate , unique, mysterious and edgy art work
photography, fashion, drawing, intelligent(creative&like-minded) individuals/groups, helping anyone, and writing poems. I 
found out that  creating  graphic art/designs
and  every other passion and talent I have can be  my
career. 
At 16 I  ocassionaly  created flyers and banners
for a Indie record label called  Resin Music  which
I discovered  through Myspace.  That's when photography 
entered  my life, because  my friends and I would always want to
take pictures for our Myspace  profile.  With that happening 
I  would use a digital  Kodak camera  and take  about 500
pictures a day, upload them and edit them for fun.  I  did that for
a year and a half straight,  everytime I used the camera
I  would hold  it a different way ,  use my 
flexible  arms and hands  to  extend the camera 
while angling it.  My friends would always  say "Why do you hold the
camera  werid like that?"  I replied "Like what? How is 
this werid?". I never held the camera the usual way  individuals
would,  almost everyone who watched me take a picture of
myself started to operate the camera and there arms like I did. I
thought it was awesome and funny at the same time.  
A few months
after I turned 17 I  started to create graphics that  were 
more creative and  detailed.  Last year in September  I 
took a Graphic Design & Digital Pre-Press course at S.C.R.O.C  for
free since I still  attended Extended Campus  and enrolled
at Torrance High School . I thought  it would be a good  idea
to  see what that field is about. Also to  learn what I didn't teach
myself  at home using the program JASC PaintShop
Pro  7  , learn how to use Adobe programs on  a Mac
computer such as  Photoshop CS2, Illustrator CS2,  and InDesign
CS2.  In November I entered a  graphic design contest to  have
a chance of winning a 5,000 dollar scholarship towards the graphic design
class at The Art Institute of Orange County. I  entered the contest with
this graphic   


 I made from using 
one picture that I took myself, font, and effects with the JASC PaintShop Pro
7 program.
I'm not attending The Art Insititue of Orange County 
because  I'm not  ready for college yet.
The year 2007 has
been the best year of my life so far, because I  learned a lot  from
different people and  twice I met   Peter Wentz who
is  from Wilmette, Illinois.  This amazing
individual  inspired me to write poems  by his unique lyrics and
poems. Also inspired me to learn guitar , learn bass, view life
on a different perspective, read more then I used to, pick up a
dictionary and more.A month after I turned 18  Super Stars
management contacted me to create a logo for their company , that
was my first  professional graphic design project .  After
that I wanted more graphic design projects  on my
to-do list so I decided to create this page to  get my 
voice heard .

If you or  anyone you know
need  GRAPHIC  ARTWORK/DESIGN;
logos,banners,web site
(background/layout/html coding), cd covers, book covers, dvd covers,
clothing designs, photo re-touching . 

WEB-DESIGN;
I start from scratch and  make everything  that would be
on your website.
I made this website from scratch including the
graphics.

I'M  ACCEPTING CUSTOM GRAPHIC ARTWORK/DESIGNS- when you
contact me, add "custom graphic " in the subject . Add  the
photo(s) in as attachment(s) OR  insert the link of the image in the
email.
  

CONTACT INFO:  littlemissshana@gmail.com
  
 

lady creative vamp inspired for a whole year now. "woo" it's about fuckn time..

My name could be Shana Savior, haha.

Wow, this probably explains why I didn't die from choking on a lemon flavored Life Saver when I was like two years old. I have no idea how I got a hold of the candy but all I know is that I hated the damn lemon one and I wanted the cherry one. My (non-biological)Dad(for 10 years) told me *says it in a neh-neh-nan-ner-neh kinda voice* " Shana you can't eat the red one un-til you eat the yell-ow be-fore it".   

Even though I was young my thoughts on that were a simple 'FUCK THAT LEMON SHIT'

but I said "O-KAY" with a big (fake) smile 

oh so my actual idea was to just swallow the lemon one and get it the fuck done with. 

Of course that idea was pretty"wonderful" if I was asking for a death wish.

I started choking and lived many lives.

Isn't it ironic that all the people in "my family" are in this "family/clique" together when I'm the only one who's always  been the one picked on/fucked with/alone/"shana your fuckin weird"/"freak of nature"/"I love you mom" vs. "haha I don't love you".

I wish I had a real family (like yours) <3

I wish my real Dad could come back to life and my Mom become alive again (on the inside). 

R.I.P. Stephen Graham Forster 10-31-1958 to 12-25-1990

Life Path Destiny: 33 / 6 

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Your Life Path - Your Evolutionary Direction and Life Purpose - The Role You Are Meant to Play in Life

The Life Path number describes the life lessons that we have come here to learn. It reveals to us the path we must take, and the role we must play to fulfill our mission. Often our choice of career is based on this vibration, and if not, then it will manifest through avocational pursuits. We may attract people and experiences into our lives that mirror the traits of this number for us, so that we may develop into our highest potential. We don't always welcome our life lessons, so it is a possibility that we may even feel an aversion to the characteristics of our Life Path number in other people, and we may ourselves act the opposite. In spite of the many ways we may choose to react to this force within us, we have been gifted with all of the talents and energy needed to fulfill our Life Path - our true, Life's Purpose.

Fairness, compassion and comfort are the gifts you are here to bestow. Those needing care and nurturing will naturally be drawn to you. Whether it be human or animal it is your destiny to empathize, heal and resolve conflict. You have all of the tools to make your world a more beautiful and loving place. Domestic responsibility, aesthetic arts, and fair judgment are some of the qualities you are here to express.

As the higher octave of the number 6, "master number" 33 is the number of compassion. It is called the Christ vibration and requires self-sacrifice, courage and unwavering commitment to reform , truth and healing. You are on a "mission", and other teachers will learn from your honesty, discipline and bravery. You are here to provide sustenance for the hungry, whether it be through food, beauty, education, ministry or medicine. Yours is the path of "savior".

haha this what a bitch gets

my mom had the KROQ 106.7 channel that's on the t.v.
she had it on mute for hours, hours, and hours...
she turns the volume up to finally listen to check what song is on and she hears
"Sugar We're Goin Down".
haha, the last thing she would want to hear is a song that reminds her of pete especially when i'm not home.
I think it's fucken hilarious
but not as hilarious as the other morning when my mom called KROQ when the astrologer Susan was on in the morning taking calls. My mom says "Shana come get the phone and ask her something", i'm like thinking I don't know what to fucken ask.
I asked a question after I told them my birthday&time I was born (5-10-1989, 12:48 a.m in Redondo Beach, Ca) and I was put on hold ( they thought my question was interesting, not the other one my mom told me to ask, haha) - I went to get my water from a few steps away and KABOOB the phone falls off the desk and the phone cord un plugged, Goodbye KROQ and Astrologer, well you know MERCURY IS IN RETRO-GRADE, haha.
two of the callers name's that got through were Cherie
the same as my mom's and my mom is always the lucky bitch. i love her.
I love saying "oh my gosh that fuckin bitch!..."
I use bitch inplace of girl and/or boy.
I don't say much of what I would recognize about anything.
I noticed everything about one certain person
the first I noticed about that person was
the right side of their body
compared to their left
because their right side of the bottom half of their body was a bit bigger in width and longer in length
than the left side...
just like my body.
making us stand the same, walk the same, when together we make the same moves at the same time.
our body rythem goes well together.

Victoria don't tell nobody

Played pool with my sister Jordan at Mr. Luckys, I was kicking her ass so bad even though I haven't played pool in a few years. I shot all the balls in, of course I had to scratch after I got the 8ball in the pocket. She won, i'm a failure once again...doesn't suprise me but who cares.
Went to the mall and got a new long sleeved thin shirt hoodie thingy from Express, can't beat the sales rack. it's white with goldish and tan design on the front. I also got a clear necklace but it isn't better then my "c plate" clndstn necklace so I took off the clear necklace thing. Next was Victoria Secret as I like to call it Victoria don't tell nobody, haha. Over there I got a perfume that smells fucken bomb, you should smell it (on me) it's called pout Beauty-to-Wear BOHEMIAN BELLE. I also got a lotion that is the same (sexyness)scent.
. Mongolion BBQ tasted so yum-e-e both times we went there, Claim Jumper's chicken tenderlions i mean tenderloins , loaded potato skins, and mozerella chesse sticks dipped in BBQ sauce was delicious yet greasey. Threw up bile stuff lastnight and this morning, not sure if it was because of all the food I ate these past couple days or if it was the Absolut Raspberry Vodka I had a cup of some was straight out just that but then I was like okay where's some squirt or something cause I needa change it up a bit.
I watched George of the Jungle on cartoon network last night just to see you for a second ;]