lady creative vamp inspired for a whole year now. "woo" it's about fuckn time..

My name could be Shana Savior, haha.

Wow, this probably explains why I didn't die from choking on a lemon flavored Life Saver when I was like two years old. I have no idea how I got a hold of the candy but all I know is that I hated the damn lemon one and I wanted the cherry one. My (non-biological)Dad(for 10 years) told me *says it in a neh-neh-nan-ner-neh kinda voice* " Shana you can't eat the red one un-til you eat the yell-ow be-fore it".   

Even though I was young my thoughts on that were a simple 'FUCK THAT LEMON SHIT'

but I said "O-KAY" with a big (fake) smile 

oh so my actual idea was to just swallow the lemon one and get it the fuck done with. 

Of course that idea was pretty"wonderful" if I was asking for a death wish.

I started choking and lived many lives.

Isn't it ironic that all the people in "my family" are in this "family/clique" together when I'm the only one who's always  been the one picked on/fucked with/alone/"shana your fuckin weird"/"freak of nature"/"I love you mom" vs. "haha I don't love you".

I wish I had a real family (like yours) <3

I wish my real Dad could come back to life and my Mom become alive again (on the inside). 

R.I.P. Stephen Graham Forster 10-31-1958 to 12-25-1990

Life Path Destiny: 33 / 6 

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Your Life Path - Your Evolutionary Direction and Life Purpose - The Role You Are Meant to Play in Life

The Life Path number describes the life lessons that we have come here to learn. It reveals to us the path we must take, and the role we must play to fulfill our mission. Often our choice of career is based on this vibration, and if not, then it will manifest through avocational pursuits. We may attract people and experiences into our lives that mirror the traits of this number for us, so that we may develop into our highest potential. We don't always welcome our life lessons, so it is a possibility that we may even feel an aversion to the characteristics of our Life Path number in other people, and we may ourselves act the opposite. In spite of the many ways we may choose to react to this force within us, we have been gifted with all of the talents and energy needed to fulfill our Life Path - our true, Life's Purpose.

Fairness, compassion and comfort are the gifts you are here to bestow. Those needing care and nurturing will naturally be drawn to you. Whether it be human or animal it is your destiny to empathize, heal and resolve conflict. You have all of the tools to make your world a more beautiful and loving place. Domestic responsibility, aesthetic arts, and fair judgment are some of the qualities you are here to express.

As the higher octave of the number 6, "master number" 33 is the number of compassion. It is called the Christ vibration and requires self-sacrifice, courage and unwavering commitment to reform , truth and healing. You are on a "mission", and other teachers will learn from your honesty, discipline and bravery. You are here to provide sustenance for the hungry, whether it be through food, beauty, education, ministry or medicine. Yours is the path of "savior".